urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:herrdoktorrLast night I dreamt that somebody loved me.No hope, no harm, just another false alarm.herrdoktorr2008-12-09T22:32:24Zurn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:herrdoktorr:4261It's her you'll always love & it's her I'll always envy.2008-12-09T22:32:24Z2008-12-09T22:32:24Z<span style="font-size: smaller"><br />I feel so ugly right now. <br />I know everyone has body hang-ups, but I'm seriously hating the way I look & it doesn't help when most of my friends are some of the most beautiful people I've ever met.<br />I've gained so much weight. I'm up to a size 18 which I'm pretty ashamed of & I'm having to plaster myself in make-up so people don't notice my skin, my eyes are pretty much black from lack of sleep & I'm getting so spotty from one to many drinks at parties & eating so much crap.<br />I really need to do something about it. I'm virtually crying when I look in the mirror in the mornings & although I've never loved myself, it's never been this bad.<br /><br />I think after Christmas & new year are over & done with I'm going to go back to eating only vegetarian food. I felt so much healthier & fitter. I know for fact I was happier. <br />...Just seriously consider what I'm eating before shuffling it down my throat the way I have been the last few months. Maybe even try re-inventing the way I look too, like change my hair & glasses etc. It seems ridiculous to say it's not for a vainity purpose because it is, but, mainly just because I'm boring myself to death & tbh, I think I'm boring to other people too & that makes me feel shitter than anything because I never used to be boring. Or at least I don't think I was...<br /><br />I just really need a change & it's happening. It has to...</span><br /><br />urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:herrdoktorr:3367I found a liquid cure.2008-11-29T19:19:39Z2008-11-29T19:19:39ZJust come home ffs.<br />You've made your point.urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:herrdoktorr:2747Been roaming around always looking down.2008-11-17T14:09:04Z2008-11-17T14:09:04ZThe Ronettes - Best Part Of Breakin' Up | Powered by Last.fm<br /><span style="font-size: smaller">Detist today. <br />Then a whole load of nothing waiting for me when I get back which is a bit depressing. <br /><br />I'm actually quite fed up having nothing to fill my day when I'm not in classes. I need a hobby or something. lol.</span>urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:herrdoktorr:752Do I want you..? Yes & no! Do I need you...? Maybe so!2008-10-12T16:44:12Z2008-10-12T16:44:12Z<span style="font-size: smaller">Welcome to the Asylum!<br />Enjoy your stay, Crumpets! >:]<br /></span><br /><br /><br /><br /><span style="font-size: smaller"><strong><span>[[ INMATES ONLY ]]<br /></span></strong></span>